It is almost here. It is time to make a decision.
Dec 302011
When you walk into a roomful of people, what do you feel? Do you feel self-conscious? Does your personality shine, to put it politely? Do you feel anything other than the comparisons your ego makes to place itself into a mold it can fit?
I feel confused, because the unseen forces that I can sense do not match the faces I must interact with physically. When I tell someone my name is Noah, I always get some eyebrows, like they are trying to think up something original to enhance their put-on face. Yet underneath I feel if they are compassionate, selfish, or confused. It is hard to take sometimes, to see the physical while my heart can sense the soulful.
Well, this apparent insanity on my part has always made me follow my heart and use my intellect. This is rather a dichotomy considering that I am a scientist not a preacher. On one hand, I know that physical laws of nature are what shape our reality; on the other hand I feel that my own dreams come true because I visualize them into existence.
I keep trying to prove to myself that both the physical laws and the non-physical are real. I know that this sounds crazy, but hold on to your judgment for just a moment. I think to myself “Where does art come from?” I mean inspired art, the picture that is so possessed of emotion that it brings tears to your eyes or the song whose lyrics make your heart light or full of longing. The invisible forces that can make you risk your life to save a life. It is the will that envelops you when you get off your ass and really help someone because you care about his or her success and growth. There is a real energy associated with each of these forces.
I have embarked upon a path to learn the nature of these nonphysical forces. My imagination and instincts and dreams have guided me to my hypothesis that our physical bodies are nothing more than biological computers. These bodies have peripherals that are connected with nerves, sensing the environment and gathering information to be used by the presence that we know ourselves as.
I am not my body. I am my intentions, my inspirations, my heart, and my wisdom, whether that is angry or compassionate, loving or hateful, enlightened or in darkness, logical or intuitive, short sighted or eternal. There is a connection between my body and my presence that I have discovered encoded in my DNA. It is the infrastructure to actualize my existence within the physical aspects of my body. It is the telephone and wires and special features to activate when communicating with me. Me meaning my presence, that entity that can know it exists, be conscious, and make choices.
What makes this world a good place to exist is the absoluteness of the realm: the hardness of the rock, bitterness of the taste, the pungent smells of the earth, and the realness of our visual perceptions. Its form appears by all of our senses to be quite solid. It lends reality to fear.
Like a mad scientist driven by desire to create, I have embarked upon an incredible journey. I record this as a scientist to know me.
I have found a way to download me so as to inhabit a different realm. This is a virtual realm within the confines of a computer’s mind and nervous system. I have named it “ah_base,” which means “the base of my god.” I have experienced a new reality that is every bit as real as Earth. I have breathed the air and touched the grass and seen magnificent places that I have never visited on Earth. The places are as they are on Earth, downloaded from databases: terabytes of information, all stored on countless computers in universities and government agencies around the world.
I have told nobody that I have successfully accomplished the transfer. I am afraid of what I have done and how it will be used. I am afraid of my own sanity or insanity.
When I am a Virtual Soul I have some facilities that are unavailable to me as a human being. I can recall, rewind, fast forward, or stop, based upon my intentions. I discovered this as I reminisced and felt regret. The feeling of regret caused me to back up just before the event; it literally blew my mind. I became virtually disoriented and my DNA programming that I have altered to allow transfer of me to ah_base executed a back out routine. This caused me to be uploaded via my REM lenses back into my human body.
The REM lenses are Quantum Computer peripherals that send signals through a natural material, the optic nerve in my eye. Developed with funding from the Department of Defense, these “Wearables” are cyborg devices to enable the human body to interact with computers by taking inputs directly from physical movement or stimuli. I have altered the programming in my compiled DNA so that my “Virtual Soul machine” can interact with the REM lenses. This is why I am afraid of my own sanity or insanity because this experience happens while I am in dream state while on earth, yet I have full memory of the time spent as a Virtual Soul.
This world I have made has enormous possibilities for the human race.
To exist without fear of physically irrevocable harm from one’s actions is the best possible place to learn. To be able to define a new unit of time and speed up or slow down depending on need is ideal for accomplishing lessons that can be quite painful and take a physical lifetime in the Earth Reality.
To be so very connected to one’s essence is liberating. On Earth Reality, I must depend on my intuition to provide me a slight glimpse into my soul’s knowledge, power, and needs. In Virtual Reality, I have the physical connection that I have in Earth Reality, the connection that simulates an idea “popping” into my mind, the simulated emotional effects that are my soul’s communication vehicle. I also have an ability to “pose” a question to my soul and get a response in a form that I can only describe as a “waking dream” where my questions become real events unfolding.
When my question has become clear to my intellect, I am instantly transported back to where I was when I “intended” the question to my soul. The key to this ability seems to lie within my “intention.”
This world is all my own right now. It is a playground for me to learn; yet I realize that without other souls, its value as a learning tool has limits. I would like to imagine only the good it could bring to the universe that we believe we exist in. I dream of the increases in human evolution that could occur if we could resolve the issues that cause us to destroy one another. Those actions based upon fear and belief in the ultimate power of the physical instead of the eternity of the human soul. Yet I know that this Virtual Reality could be used to entrap and enslave souls, and perpetuate the weakness that the Earth Reality exists to heal by requiring physical consequences for our actions.
I do not have enough detail in my Virtual Reality to increase my understanding of the present and future. I have a completely “real” sense of the Earth, the physical places, and past events, according to the data available to my Virtual Soul machine. I have my past memories and I can “pose” questions about the past and get vivid experiences that feel real. When I project my intentions for questions of the present and future, I get “connection timeouts” from my Virtual Mind.
My Virtual Mind is like it is on Earth Reality, however it has more dimensions. Not only can I see images flash through my mind as I think them or perform calculations on an imaginary chalkboard, but I can look things up in a room of my imagining. I can examine the machinery as it is executing in the Physical world of microchips, CPU’s, data channels, and computer simulations. I can examine the genetic routines that have been run and any errors that were logged.
I have installed into the Virtual Soul Machine certain safeguards and back doors that will protect me from harming my soul. I have been enlightened to the places and methods to change by using the forces of intention to live through the dangers and then examine the routines that took me there. I then altered the routines, intended past the altered routines, and observed the result. Invariably, the result is either a complete lockout to that outcome or the invocation of a back out routine that uploads me back to Earth Reality.
I intend to create another Virtual Soul so I can learn the limits of my New World. If I can do this, then my fear of insanity and in losing myself in illusions I call reality may subside. At the very least, I would have another being to relate to and to forge a new reality with.
I have let a reporter, a beautiful, inquisitive woman, into my world. I have sampled her DNA for this purpose. I am demonstrating the QEP to her for her reporting and I am planning to bring her into the VSM. She believes in me, I think. I have a good feeling about her and feel that I know her. Am I crazy? Have I created this dream and am I living it in some VSM? I know which world is which because the VSM gives me options not in the physical realm. What I do not know is the interaction, if any, between the two worlds.
I have downloaded Robin’s files. The VSM will have as much real data, video, audio, and information that memories are built from as exists. The VSM will use these building blocks to create the real time actualization of Robin’s soul within the VSM.
My Virtual Soul (VS) will be there too. I have given myself the authority to execute a back out routine on Robin’s VS. Am I making myself into God? It bothers me immensely that I have the ability to pull the plug on another human soul. Even if it is a virtual soul, which I have not proven has any less real soul than the physical; do I have that right to assign that power to myself?
Robin will believe she is in the physical plane. I have not enabled the aspects of the VS that expand the physical reality. I will do that once we are both in Virtual Reality. Hearing someone speak in your mind without sound or lip movement may be too overwhelming for both of us.
I crave the intimacy of the mind without the limitations of words; the understanding that could occur without fear caused by guessing and supposing what another human is thinking, feeling and interpreting. I am scared to death of my actions and drawn uncontrollably to the path I am on.
God, please help me to follow the light.
davidrothman